First of all I am a people pleaser! I want be liked and I want to solidify it in the books that I am a good person.
There you have it!
I am completely vulnerable right now. I have ripped off a layer of protection and you see more of my true motives.
What if everyone that you came in contact with knew what you were thinking? Just like that movie "what women want," where Mel Gibson has an opportunity to know what every woman was thinking in his presence. He became overwhelmed by the experience.
As I have grown up and hopefully matured a little, I have realized that doing things for people is a dangerous thing, when you do it with the wrong motive.
If you want them to like you, you do things for them. If you want them to forgive you, you do things for them. If you want benefits in the relationship, you do things for them. It is dangerous because eventually it can become a rat race. In other words, giving and getting becomes a tally sheet.
God is different! In His perspective and His kingdom it is all about grace. We can't do anything to earn His love, forgiveness or blessings. He loves us no matter what we do, whether good, bad, or ugly!
That is why instead of trying to please others to feel loved and cared about...., I am going to love God first.
and when He tells me to go do a specific act of love, I will remember that I am doing it for Him.
Peace,
P Matt
